Reflections of a Day.
I am on a total health kick, except this time I feel like it’s for real. I can only say that now, because I’ve experienced the feeling of health kicks that feel like they may only be momentary. But this shit feels real, and that’s why I’m blogging about it, because I think I’m on the right track. Could also be that runner’s high people speak about, but I’ve only done the C25K once, so I doubt that.
My biggest motivator in wanting to be healthy, overall (in mind, body, spirit) is my dear angel, Cade. I want him to see his parents living an active and healthy lifestyle, and with us being his biggest role models (at least ’til the whole peer thing kicks into gear), I want him to adopt some of our healthy habits and ways of living. I want him to feel good about the things that his body CAN do, not should do. I want him to feel confident, and have a super healthy level of self-esteem, which he can use as a nice and secure grounding for everything he does in his life.
Honestly, I see my little boy moving about so insanely, so manically, and I want to do the same. I’m going to have to do the same, because once he really gets crawling and walking, there is no stopping him, and I may have to be on the chase. I’d really love to be able to be on that chase without a cherry-red tomato face and a lack of breath, and the only way I am going to be able to do that is to train my body and train my mind to believe in my body.
While the thought of him becoming active and never stopping is a little bit daunting, especially as I sit here at 11:00 o’clock at night, telling myself that my legs don’t hurt (they are aching so bad) and that I won’t be tired in the morning when I get up at 7am to do my run (I likely will be, but once I get going I’m sure I’ll be fine.. no, I will be fine), I would much rather have a child who is active (can’t say it enough, in body and mind) than one who sits in front of the silly television and watches super lame shows and plays crappy video games all day long. It’s common knowledge that children are spending less and less time outdoors and engaging in human-to-human interactions, and I don’t want Cade to be one of those statistics.
I want to be a healthy mom, but more than that, I want to be a healthy woman. I want to feel good about the activities I engage in, the food I put into my body, and the words and pep talks that I give myself on a daily basis. What I put into my body almost directly and immediately affects how I feel about myself. I want to allow myself some freedom though, too. A girl’s gotta treat herself sometimes! I want to feel what my body can do. I carried my son for nearly 9 months, I nurtured both of our bodies while doing so, and I birthed him into this wonderful world. I can surely do anything. Birth is so incredibly empowering and has opened my eyes to the beauty of being so self-aware, and believing in the power of my own mind, my own spirit, and in turn my own body. But that is for another post.
For now, what my body needs is rest and sleep. It has been a busy day, socially, mentally, and physically. We have visited with dear friends, walked around the neighbourhood and played on the ground, and I have studied for an upcoming interview, and to say the least, it’s draining and exhausting the crap out of me. I don’t want to fall short on my run tomorrow, and since it’ll be an early one, I ought to call it a night. Goodnighty night my friends, and if you’re doing the C25K, or another running/exercise program, let me know, comment, talk about your struggles, whatever it is. I know there’s a few of you who have started the program and that makes me ecstatic beyond all belief. We’re creating a revolution, y’all!
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